Ever heard of separation of church and state? Here’s mine: separation of work and personal life. At work, I’m personable enough to not come off as a raging bitch, but still, I don’t bother to show anyone all of me. Because work is work and my personal life is my safe haven, where I surround myself with only those I trust to see and know the real me.
I didn’t realize this about myself until recently, but apparently, the work me is pretty darn nerdy. Here’s a little something I wrote about it. Hope you enjoy and Happy Friday!!
It’s too pretty to eat inside
and no one asked me if I wanted to join them
or hitch a ride
Not that I mind
’cause sometimes, my own company is the kind I find
the most soothing to my soul
and if I’m sitting at a picnic bench beneath the trees
it gives me the chance to shake off the sterility of the cubicle
and just breathe
Nothing like a midday pick-me-up
listening to the chirping of the birds
and the wind rustling things around
and the sound
of nothing
No computers, no phones, and best of all, no words
Though yeah, sometimes, I look like a loser
’cause I’m convinced I must be the only user
of this picnic table, a little island of nature
amongst an asphalt and office building jungle
“Poor thing!”, they all must think
She sits all alone
no friends to call her own
They don’t know what I do
How nice it is to sit in the peace and quiet
they don’t buy it
but they’re all too scared to try it
So today,
after cliques had gathered and gone
I grabbed my lunch and made my way
to my lonely island
I cleaned the table and prepped my lunch
so excited to be alone with my thoughts
but I hit a snag
when a group of chatty hags
picked up on the same hunch
Up they came
invading my turf
looking at me like I was doing the same
“Go away!”, their eyes said
but in their silence
they snubbed me instead
Ate with their backs turned
like I hadn’t earned
the ‘pleasure’ of their company
Which I still overheard
mindnumbingly boring chatter
my happy solitude shattered
to remind me
at work
I’m still just a big nerd!
